I once had two very good friends. We literally lived our lives in each other. Hung out everyday. Spoke on the phone and over the Net when we weren't face to face with one another. Shared secrets. They told me which guys they wanted to fuck. I told them which girls I wanted to lay. And this was, I thought, two beautiful friendships which would last for a long time.
But like food, friendships do go bad if you leave them lying around for a while.
I had to go for an orientation camp before enrolling into college. Both of them were worried that I would change, and start hanging out with my newfound friends and start to forget about them. I promised them I won't, and that we will still be the closest of friends. No one can replace you two, I said.
I turned out to be the naive one.
My life started to centre around college. The phone calls stopped, the meetings, the meals, all diminished. Conversations became tedious and monosyllabic. Soon, I changed my Internet Messaging mode to "Invisible" whenever I logged online.
It wasn't until 5 months later that I decided to try and salvage the situation. By then, one of them had already cast me off as "just another guy". I tried to speak to the other one, and this was the reply I got when I asked her how life has been:
"Get out of my life. Stop sticking your nose in. You've been out of it long enough, and now you suddenly decide you want to come in and claim your position? Forget it. I'm already regarding you as an acquaintance. Don't force me to even have to take that back."
2 years down the road, I don't suppose they even want to acknowledge having known me in their life.
I just want them to know that I still regard them as friends and that if they ever need help, any way and any form, I'll be here.
Sorry.
But like food, friendships do go bad if you leave them lying around for a while.
I had to go for an orientation camp before enrolling into college. Both of them were worried that I would change, and start hanging out with my newfound friends and start to forget about them. I promised them I won't, and that we will still be the closest of friends. No one can replace you two, I said.
I turned out to be the naive one.
My life started to centre around college. The phone calls stopped, the meetings, the meals, all diminished. Conversations became tedious and monosyllabic. Soon, I changed my Internet Messaging mode to "Invisible" whenever I logged online.
It wasn't until 5 months later that I decided to try and salvage the situation. By then, one of them had already cast me off as "just another guy". I tried to speak to the other one, and this was the reply I got when I asked her how life has been:
"Get out of my life. Stop sticking your nose in. You've been out of it long enough, and now you suddenly decide you want to come in and claim your position? Forget it. I'm already regarding you as an acquaintance. Don't force me to even have to take that back."
2 years down the road, I don't suppose they even want to acknowledge having known me in their life.
I just want them to know that I still regard them as friends and that if they ever need help, any way and any form, I'll be here.
Sorry.