Saturday, October 27 @ 9:41 PM
Don't bother reading, it's not worth it.
I am not worthy of anyone, anything.
I'm just a screwed person, with no reason for my existence. I'm stupid dumb and annoying. What's the point of studying, of trying to succeed in life. In this wretched life. I ought to be autistic, and oblivious to whatever around me. Maybe I'd lead a better life. I should not bother about anything.
No one likes me, I dont trust anyone. Im all alone. I'll "celebrate" my birthday alone. This year, next, forever. No one will care, it's just another day of the year. In fact, there's more important things to do like studying for Olevels/Alevels, or just plainly not bothering about me. Sure, ignorance is bliss, when the person you are ignoring is me, cos you'll be a happy kid that way. But I really hate feeling excluded all the time. No one listens, or bothers. I don't know anything.
You can just put the blame on me. Im forever wrong. Never doing anything right. Im a jinx. You can scold me, shout till you contract throat cancer, and it still won't be enough. I just a freaking idiot who should be scolded for everything I do.
Just when I vowed to do what I read yesterday, why can't I bear to do so anymore? Actually i shall, but just to one person. Thank god that mini cold war yesterday is resolved already. Even my favourite saying that goes "There's goodness in everyone", I will not stand by it ever.
There is no one. Maybe just Ellie, my Sully.
Right I shld just stop, there's no point thinking about something so worthless.
Anyway whoever who bothered to highlight and even read through that whole crap, thanks you made me feel an ounce more worthy.
Well on a different note, I managed to catch an arcade toy with some sponsorship of nice people. Thanks.